A Rose Grew in Chaos: The Sequel
So, there was still one more major things in my life that needed to be transformed before Pluto entered Aquarius on my glorious half b-day in 2023. The next area of my life that needed some Plutonian-transformation was regarding my career. Specifically, my relationship with my corporate employer. In my debut novel Journey Through Ascension: An Astrological Memoir, a major topic is that which surrounds my career as an accountant in corporate America for the last decade and a half.
“When people ask me if I’m happy with my career, I say that I enjoy being in accounting because I’d rather deal with numbers rather than people when it comes to my 9-5. My career in finance and accounting has allowed me to do just that. It always keeps me comfortable, which is great, but it will never get me on the journey towards complete spiritual fulfillment.” - Journey Through Ascension: An Astrological Memoir
My career ended up hitting a major crossroad on March 9th 2023. Earlier that week I took a couple hours off and worked from home on a day that I usually went into the office. The reason was to acknowledge the wake of my godmother Linny who unexpectedly passed away in her mid-sixties. I was unable to make the trip across the country so making myself available during the wake seemed like the best thing I could do.
The way my employer handled this situation of me mourning her death was crazy disrespectful. I won’t go into further detail, but it caused me to reevaluate my work situation. It also unearthed a lot of corporate wounds inflicted on my mental health by my relationship with my employer. Late nights of working, constant negative reinforcement, and an infinite supply of micro aggression towards me finally proved to be a little too much for my mental health. This job kept me very secure, but at the same time it was the clear root of my anxiety and all the people, places, and things I didn’t desire to manifest in my life.
So I finally decided to surrender.
“Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to rather than opposing the flow of life.” – Eckart Tolle
An email was sent to HR letting them know that I needed to take mental health days. After a few back-and-forths, the mental health days turned into a leave of absence, and eventually an impromptu gap year for the remainder of 2023 and beginning of 2024.
I unapologetically had to put myself first in order for my Libra scales to balance the relationship i had developed with my employer.
“Sometimes we give too much of ourselves to others. When this happens, selfishness becomes justified and can carry a positive vibration rather than a negative one. Whatever energy we give of ourselves, we deserve to have reciprocated in some way, shape, or form. In our hearts, we all know when we are justified in our selfish behavior and when we are abusing our selfish behavior.” - Journey Through Ascension: An Astrological Memoir
I never stepped foot back into my former employer’s office or logged in remotely again. Not being completely sure of my next move, I prioritized my focus towards pouring into my cup rather than having my cup depleted by others. I was taking another step towards living in my truth.
“The truth is that all truths have an expiration date. Similar to our time on this planet. Many things that were true a thousand years ago are not true today. We all have our own truths to uncover and discover.” - Journey Through Ascension: An Astrological Memoir
To be Continued…